I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW.
CAN WE JUST—CAN WE TAKE A MOMENT PLEASE TO TALK ABOUT THESE HERE PHOTOS
I have consistently had body image issues (because I am a human). These photos are from 2010-2011, so three or four years old, and looking back at them I feel like the person in these photos is completely different from the person I am right now who still has body image issues. This fucking girl in these photos looks fucking adorable and should never have had problems with herself.
And it pisses me off so much that it takes three years of removal to be able to appreciate myself. Why the fuck couldn’t I do so in the moment? Why did I have to constantly be fighting with myself?
What the everlasting fuck is wrong with the world that this beautiful fucking specimen hated herself so firmly?
I’m having a lot of feelings right now and don’t know how to express them all, but I’m definitely mad about this. And at the same time I’m well aware of the fact that I was 40 lbs. lighter in these photos than I am now, so seeing these makes me want to go back to this point. It almost makes now worse, even though it shouldn’t because who knows? Three years from now I’ll probably look at pictures of myself and say BEAUTIFUL like I am with these.
I wasted so much time hating myself when I could have done just about anything more productive.
I’m just really mad, y’all.